ENBYSS

i remember feeling like ive burnt out from work, and being confused by that. because i didn't stretch myself, and i didn't feel like ive been overworking - but there was some sort of malaise that had started to stick to me

today I felt it again, mondays do that to you, and I decided to look it up for coping. that's when I found out about boreout.

its effects are similar to burnout, however instead of excess activity it's excess boredom. in my case, im left kinda apathetic because of how tedious some tasks get, and the slow reviews + pipelines making finishing any task a major slog

turns out that also comes with significant stress since you're not working all the time, either because you're so done that pauses happen, so you start worrying about getting caught and whatever. and after some thinking I realized that this has basically been happening for years now

kinda weird how this happens in software engineering - there's boring stuff out there but since programming still requires your head, it means you're spending a lot of time reasoning out things you've done before just because the context is a bit different. which is different from like, doing the dishes - because at least there you're doing something with your hands

have y'all experienced burnout before, cause it's hitting me that ive been dealing with it for some years now lmao

my take on github copilot is that i don't think i'll ever want to use it

building a dependency on something like that just. feels like a bad idea to me. dunno if I can explain it better but it just doesn't seem like something that'll take you down a good path.

maybe it's just that I believe code generation should be controlled - such as boilerplate or what have you, stuff you'd have in an IDE. or maybe it's that I prefer figuring stuff out myself rather than delegating it to AI.

i heard someone say they learn new languages via copilot, and that kinda disturbed me lmao. can't put a finger on why, or if it's rational - just. doesn't vibe well for me.