So I've been sick as hell for the past few days due to tonsilitis. One of the medications they have me on is Prednisone, as a way to reduce swelling so I can swallow. As the doctor explained to me, rephased in my own way: Fun fact! Prednisone can have more pronounced effects in women. Gender affirming fact! That's because of how it interacts with estrogen, so as a trans woman I get those more pronounced effects. Which includes anxiety.
Some of the worst anxiety I've had in years.
I noticed this was kicking in about an hour after I got up ever day. I'd take the meds at 6, by 7 I'd be starting to feel like a mess, by 8 I was an anxious disaster, and by noon most days I was near nonfunctional. By 7 at night I was feeling better...but at that point I'd lost most of the day.
So anyway last night I had the realization there was no "Take this every morning/noon/evening" on the pill bottle so I just took the Prednisone before bed which made my sleep worse but I'm awake and don't feel like the entire world is about to explode because I refilled my cat's water 5 minutes late so clearly I'm the worst human being on the planet and everyone hates me (catastrophizing anxiety logic is a trip sometimes.)
It's a small fix but I'm trying to get better at making small fixes because they don't always make problems go away, but they can make problems a little bit smaller, and sometimes that is Enough.