i went downtown today and was surprised to see vocaloid cosplayers, remembered it was miku expo today, looked for tickets and there were some available despite it being sold out when i had looked a few months ago, was so close to spending $80 on a last minute ticket, remembered i had seen that the vancouver show was just a very big TV instead of a hologram, waited for people to get inside to the venue before deciding if i'd buy a ticket, and then it was a big TV here in portland too, so i am now confident in having decided not to spend the money, but wishing i could have talked to other miku fans, but still also knowing myself well enough to understand that i never would have had the courage to start a conversation
i ran the gamut of emotions today.