Unfortunately, the oldest of the drives are IDE, which I probably should've seen coming, but until I can get the cords for it, I won't know what 10yo me was up to.
But, the big important one is my middle/highschool hard drive. and that one works just fine.
So here we go.
Cringe under readmore. Prepare for Tia Lore.
My old sonas.
Honestly, I only ever made a fursona at that time bc the girl I had a crush on had one. I still enjoyed the idea, and it was more fun to draw dumb stupid fox here than my own face when i wanted to doodle in notebooks. I was furry-adjacent for a while anyways, I followed furries, I enjoyed furry art, but a sona came later. This one lasted from middle school, all the way through highschool. These are the oldest drawings, I know I did more, and probably better ones, but I must not have taken pictures sadly, or I cant find them quite yet and gotta keep digging.
I liked ska, I liked old games, so behold, skafox64. This would basically be my username on everything until college.
Horse here was my attempt during like 2010, 2011, of making a ponysona, but this was during peak "shithead copdad haver", and around 2012 is when I started to hate cops so. I never used it much. I abandoned having a sona until late 2017 when I drew the first version of my current one.
A Collage
The three crumbled cringepillars of my highschool life. r/Atheism, MLP, and Homestuck.
MLP was certainly the biggest, and the one i spent the most time and money making and buying things for. It was cringe, I was cringe, but I ultimately don't regret it.
The show was pretty good for what it was, I had a lot of fun at what would become the anime club at my highschool, MLP was pretty big with the geeks there. Just not sure where all the fascists came from.
I will also credit the fandom with being my gateway to competitive fighting game stuff.
Mane6 (Them's Fightin' Herds) used to have their Fighting Is Magic fangame thread on Ponychan. Someone posted a skype link to the dev chat, and I had a good time in there. I loved watching Oreo's mvc3 Rocket Raccoon play, Cam helped me with some Abel stuff, I even posted a video basically @ing them that I landed my first cool abel combo in a real match. (Couldn't find the original so. Fuck it, I'm reuploading unlisted.) I don't think I interacted with Nappy or Anu very much, but it was awesome seeing dev builds and SFxT streams. I don't remember why I left. I must've been going through a rough time, bc that's my one big regret with the fandom.
Much love to Mane6, I'm really happy yall have made it so far.
Reddit atheism is the earliest one of these, and I definitely dodged a bullet. The stereotype exists for a reason, but I think I did escape that board with the right ideas. My reddit atheism was mostly fueled by support for my gay friends, and my teenage appreciation of science. The antifeminist stuff rubbed me the wrong way, and I got out asap. I did have that stages of fascism pic saved since late 2012, so young me was on the right track.
Ugh... Homestuck. The thing that got me onto tumblr. Homestuck might be the one I regret the most, but is the one that helped me figure out the most about myself.
All of the friends I met through Homestuck, save for one, are gone from my life now (thankfully). I hope that one is doing okay. The only mf who understood Gamzee.
Anyways. I had fun at least, in the moment. Dumb fandom shenanigans and being annoying on tumblr.
My homestuck arc coincided with my initial brushes with gender dysphoria, definitely made worse by my nepeta kinnie gf at the time being really weird about me being trans.
She said something once that pissed me off, about how "I would never have been trans if I didn't join tumblr".
Technically, she was half-right. But that's only because tumblr was the first place online where a lot of cool trans people came into my social circles, and I started to understand. And eventually sympathize. So sure, Tumblr made me realize I was trans, but I would've found my way there anyways.
Maybe a reread is in order one of these days.
I think that's good for right now.
One might look back at her teenage self and recoil a bit at some of the really dumb embarrassing shit she did. But one can still find the good pieces she kept to build the her of today.