I wanted you to know, when you post images that say "KILL YOURSELF", what kind of person is forced to see that message.
On May 29, I used this post to tell you my story,that of being hounded with the constant
feeling of suicidality, despite not being the sort of person who will ever actually commit it.
My story went through my history with child abandonment and child neglect, child rape, bullying, attempting suicide, overcoming autism, living with PTSD, difficulties to accept my trans identity exacerbated by the absence of local community and the difficulty to fit in online communities.
I do not consider this story a secret, but I do not wish to leave it on Cohost for archival. I prefer to share it in a better context, on a site that does not have an adversarial relationship with me.
I appreciate everyone who took the time to read my story since I shared it. I understand it might come a bit as a surprise to people who followed me for a long time and mostly saw me posting about building hardware synths and saying a lot of swear words about computers. It was nice to post with you for the last six months.
I urge you to also read the stories of others who struggled, some stories I have reposted on my page.
I received an e-mail from a staff member about the issue. It was phrased more like a personal e-mail than a corporate e-mail, and thus, isn't something I should simply copy-paste here.
In addition to confirming that it's OK to tell ideological enemies to commit suicide, it suggested that I should do what is best for my health, including leaving Cohost if I must.
If you read my story, you know what it means for me to take my meds: the prescription that has kept me alive and thriving is comprised of solidarity, compassion, kindness, and community.
I leave you with a simple question: since Cohost isn't for us, for whom is it?
