wehhhh I want her to beat me up 🥺 I want her to kick my ass 🥺 I would literally let her run me through with a sword 🥺🥺🥺
[turns to camera]
Actually to be honest, even keeping an open mind, I don't know if I'd particularly enjoy being physically hurt by someone, consensual or not. But the nature of expressing one's desires online is that describing acts of sexual intimacy is often inappropriate, while violence—particularly towards oneself—is considered more palatable. And ultimately, what matters in the communication is that some manner of carnal yearning is expressed.
We are bodies, all of us. The separation of body and mind is a far-fetched and impractical dream. Our lives are sterile, structured, organised, pushing the grotesque inner animal out of sight, into safe little playpens where it can tire itself out. Anything that makes the heart quicken and the synapses sparkle is an act of carnal indulgence, whether it be sex or violence. The implication is under the same umbrella, no matter how oblique we make our language. What matters is the mutually shared moment of being a creature, a pile of aching meat and pumping chemicals. A body that must be bodied.
[turns away from camera]
not the sword part, though. that's hyperbole.
