Follow-up to the whole justice thing-
I am not "good". There is no moral higher power for traumaqueers to appeal to. No tradition. No past society or lineage that actively wants me.
I am not "deserving of love". The love I've received has always been conditional. Conditional on my health- conditional on my queerness- conditional on my ability to reparent myself- conditional on what I can give and my capacity to give it. I knew this as a child, when I only really conceptualized myself as autistic. It is now doubly true as a traumatized queer.
If you can be "good" and "deserving of love" cherish that. Cherish the communities and family members that make that true. I'm happy for you.
Some of us have lost those things. Maybe we never had them. Or something happened, and we lost that.
I don't know what it means to live in your just society of good, deserving of love people.