Bit of introspection here and maybe a little oversharing, so please do scroll on if that sounds like a bad time, but:
I've realized that I sometimes struggle to connect with people whom I only engage with on an average, every day wavelength. Down at ground level with the normies, it's hard to find words at times. It's like there are a million little speed bumps in my brain, which I guess is probably a pretty common experience for people on the spectrum.
That all falls away if I can find the opportunity to show a little affection, a little passion. It's like telling someone I love them or that they're beautiful is my language and I'm never more myself than when I'm in the presence of someone I treasure.
I think I want to be surrounded by people like that. So I can be me and life can feel just a little more natural.
Don't take this to mean that I don't enjoy talking to you if our relationship isn't exactly intense, by the way. I just have to think a little more from time to time and that's okay.