so long, and thanks for all the fish

you wanna know something that my EMDR therapist does that I really fucking love? she always uses "they" pronouns for me, including when we're talking about younger me. there was no "little girl" or anything like that before my transition at 31, I have always been nonbinary and we respect that in her office. it owns. I don't think I've ever had another medical professional do that for me, and it really shines out in comparison.

not gonna lie either, it just makes everything so much easier in trauma processing when my therapist is like "why don't you ask your younger self how they feel about X" and my heart and brain have a happy little "hell yeah" about it

today has not been very cash money so far. gonna take a shower and see if I can reset my brain so that I can enjoy the holiday

getting into contact with my younger self/selves through EMDR has been thoroughly revealing. it's so wild to have 20-year-old emotions wake back up in a safe environment... teenage me was so righteously angry all the time, but never felt safe enough to express those feelings in a healthy way before. having the power to engage with myself and my emotions through immersive visualization is indescribable; I wish everyone had the access to this sort of therapy

they are tagged with "LGBTQ+" and "Transgender" so honestly I'm surprised I haven't come across them on PsychologyToday before now. might have even sought them out for help, if not for the fact that we would DEFINITELY recognize each other and that's a no-no in therapeutic relationships lmao. fuckin good for them though, I'm so glad they're out there helping other folks like us who need it!!