so long, and thanks for all the fish

I be having the weirdest dreams lately, and I am Very Sure it's due to finally hitting the "trauma processing" stage in my EMDR therapy. I always attempt to approach my anxiety dreams/nightmares from the perspective of "what is my brain trying to work on right now" but uh, lol, even knowing exactly what's causing it isn't making these dreams any easier to deal with in the moment tbh. just gonna have to write them all down and shove them into my Trauma Container for next week's session, I guess?

it literally took me until a few hours ago to remember that I have gabapentin, which was prescribed for me to take as needed in cases of severe acute anxiety, available and at the ready for me at all times of the day¹... but you know what, better late than never. I feel so much better now after taking my max dose. the bees in my head have quieted down and I feel more securely anchored within my body again.

I also reached out to my parents for support tonight, and they were great. they bought me a burger and fries for dinner, and they invited me to come hang out and watch Masked Singer together, and that in combo with my meds did a world of good for me. it feels good to be able to ask for help (and know that I'll get it) once in a while.

1. this is at least the 4th time I've forgotten that I have an acute anxiety medication on hand, so tbh at this point I probably need to write it down on my coping skills flyer for the next time. I can't be forgetting about my foundational skills lmao

I be having the weirdest dreams lately, and I am Very Sure it's due to finally hitting the "trauma processing" stage in my EMDR therapy. I always attempt to approach my anxiety dreams/nightmares from the perspective of "what is my brain trying to work on right now" but uh, lol, even knowing exactly what's causing it isn't making these dreams any easier to deal with in the moment tbh. just gonna have to write them all down and shove them into my Trauma Container for next week's session, I guess?

I be having the weirdest dreams lately, and I am Very Sure it's due to finally hitting the "trauma processing" stage in my EMDR therapy. I always attempt to approach my anxiety dreams/nightmares from the perspective of "what is my brain trying to work on right now" but uh, lol, even knowing exactly what's causing it isn't making these dreams any easier to deal with in the moment tbh. just gonna have to write them all down and shove them into my Trauma Container for next week's session, I guess?