so long, and thanks for all the fish

but I also have very little motivation to do that, so I think I'm going to lay in bed and try to accumulate potential energy for a bit first

oh well, my body decided a nap was necessary

I allow this self-care transgression and forgive myself for it. there are extenuating circumstances; having a greaseball day is allowed this time. if I still can't get a shower in before therapy tomorrow, my therapists will probably understand if I show up a little haggard, because we have been dealing with a high-emotion family emergency this entire past weekend and that is a reasonable excuse imo

you know though, all things considered-- this is actually the first Wallowing-In-Depression Day I've had in quite a while, months even. it's really comforting to know that my first overwhelming depressive swing of 2023 is powered by extrinsic factors. I'm choosing to celebrate the fact that it took an actual event to get my depression going this time, instead of just brain bads.

Elbi is staying at the emergency vet for one more night in the hopes that more fluids and meds will help get her levels back down. I really hope she bounces back; we don't want to give up on her yet.

but I also have very little motivation to do that, so I think I'm going to lay in bed and try to accumulate potential energy for a bit first