so long, and thanks for all the fish

I'm still working on the "establishing a sleep schedule and hygiene routine" thing but like, I'm so much more motivated to go do things and I have so much more patience when it comes to stressful/aggravating situations. my parents asked me if I'd thought about getting back into the workforce lately, and for maybe the first time in my entire life, I responded "yeah I have!" and felt myself actually meaning it, without any self doubt or inner noooo-I-don't-wanna thoughts.

I'm not entirely sure if covid safety might play a role in what kind of job I take up, but I've always wanted to try barista-ing. baristing? baristando. I want to make the coffee's

I was expecting a lot more in-depth trauma work tbh. I'm not sure whether to be proud of myself or have impostor syndrome about it and seek out another specialist

me: yeah I've been feeling really good this week! I had a couple minor stressful events and was able to talk myself back down

therapist: great! well you seem like you have everything you need, best of luck over the holidays

me, in my brain: oh god I've convinced her that I'm totally fine. oh no. what have I done

well if nothing else, I am pretty sure that I'm still on a waitlist or two for other therapists and I might just go ahead and let them assess me to see if I need any more brain work

I was expecting a lot more in-depth trauma work tbh. I'm not sure whether to be proud of myself or have impostor syndrome about it and seek out another specialist

me: yeah I've been feeling really good this week! I had a couple minor stressful events and was able to talk myself back down

therapist: great! well you seem like you have everything you need, best of luck over the holidays

me, in my brain: oh god I've convinced her that I'm totally fine. oh no. what have I done

I was expecting a lot more in-depth trauma work tbh. I'm not sure whether to be proud of myself or have impostor syndrome about it and seek out another specialist