so long, and thanks for all the fish

now I must sit here and wait in intense agony until I receive further things in the mail (either a hearing summons or simply the legal deed itself I guess?? unclear)

I have no idea if it will show up in time for my driver's license to expire in about 2.5 weeks. just part of the agony I suppose lmao

lately I have been... astoundingly functional?? I have been making appointments and starting my name-change process and adjusting my work schedule based on my needs and it's like... whoa where did this come from. is this just what self-actualization is supposed to feel like

god I FINALLY just found my copy of SMTV that I got as a gift like 2 years ago. apparently it's just been sitting in my parents' basement for the past year, which means that the memory I had of packing it up when I moved back in with my partners? completely fabricated by my brain¹! fuckin fallacious electric meat slime 🙄

it's even still shrinkwrapped lmao. I can't wait to finally start actually playing it

1. in my brain's defense, it was still recovering from the previous year's mental breakdown, so I simply have to make peace with the fact that my memory from around that time period is a little bit swiss cheese'd

the worst part of the ibs is when it completely derails my day. like, I woke up an hour and a half ago and was ready to start my day, but then Throbbing Headache happened and I had to immediately go right back to bed. my poor son keeps jumping in the bed with me like "why are you still here?? we're hungry" and I just cannot even get up to feed him breakfast yet. awful tbh. I'm sorry bud

slept in till 3pm. am forced to assume that maybe someone else was able to feed the cats. head still hurting. boooooooo

the best thing, though, was that after I made the earlier post, my dear sweet son realized that I was incapacitated and came to sit on my torso and purr for a little while. he's very good at that 😻