so long, and thanks for all the fish

I haven't done any bedtime wind-down meditation in a really long time, but it's not for lack of trying. it's just that it worked so well against my insomnia when I was recovering from crisis that nowadays I put on the meditation, and I literally fall asleep within minutes of it staring lmao. I think this is an acceptable state of things right now

Morwen is still missing, but in the meantime Freddie has been Extra Cuddly because he can tell I'm bummed and he's in Emotional Support Mode. he keeps crying and crawling into my lap to just weigh me down and purr on top of me. it's very sweet of him. I really lucked out in adopting a cat who came pre-loaded with emotional support modules tbh

also, as an aside, we picked up a second humane trap. hopefully doubling the trap presence helps increase our likelihood of catching our baby girl.

unexpected nice side effect of being anxious today: my room is now cleaner than it's been in months. if the anxiety continues tomorrow, I'm going to apply it towards folding & reorganizing my wardrobe like I've been meaning to for a while

trying very hard to have patience with the people in my life who are freaking out for valid reasons right now but holy shit I was not prepared for one of them to have a fucking 25-year backslide today

what do you mean you don't know how to hop a chain-link fence. what do you mean you're not willing to figure it out right now in an emergency. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WOULD RATHER JUST SIT HERE AND HAVE A PANIC CONUNDRUM ABOUT HOW YOU MAY OR MAY NOT HURT YOURSELF. I'm truly sorry but I simply do not have time for this