so long, and thanks for all the fish

officially having to take Noodles & Co off my list of "restaurants that don't make me sick" today, after it gave me a migraine this morning. weh

I took them immediately in a haze of migraine and panic because I had the thought "I cannot deal with 24 full hours of brain zaps again," and then remembered that I have to take meds again tonight and I don't want to get serotonin syndrome 🤦 soooo I think maybe I'll push it back a few hours tonight if possible, in hopes that keeps my levels stable enough??

if I had been thinking clearly, I would have taken a third of my usual Lexapro dose instead of the full amount-- just to stave off the brain zaps for the remaining 8-ish hours before my next dose. but I'm being gracious with myself, because it's really hard to think clearly while your guts are in turmoil and your head is pounding in time with your heartbeat. the good news is that my other brain med doubles as a blood pressure med, so I think that will help with counteracting any possible side effects from having a little too much Lexapro in my system tomorrow. but maybe I also only take 2/3 of my usual dose tonight?? idk I'm not completely in my right head today so it's hard to say for sure. I just don't want to make myself REALLY sick yfm

hooooohhhhhh I like when the therapy feels like cleaning out a wound. raw, a bit sore, but so much healthier and better than before. I'm putting a Lisa Frank bandaid on it today

decided to hide in my room and take some me time while my partners are hosting a game night, but now I hear people laughing and having fun and I'm like oh no... the fomo...