frostsparks

Frost Sparks

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rabbitwedding999
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rabbitwedding999
@rabbitwedding999

question

to any systems/plural folk that follow me:

is it like normal to suspect you were a system but after a certain event(specifically traumatic) something just, breaks, and bam you have different versions of yourself or whatever.
and STILL be in constant denial lol.

rabbitwedding999
@rabbitwedding999

it gets weirder when I realized that I've always been this way, just didn't know any terms or shit. especially with repressed memories/huge gaps in my memory/forgetfulness. idk i always feel scared talking about this stuff publicly because idk I get scared. especially considering how stigmatized this disorder is.

frostsparks
@frostsparks

I've always been hesitant to talk on this topic but I feel like this is a good time-

I think I might've been plural at one point in my life? during my first year and a half of high school I had absolutely zero friends, and a traumatic family event happened after just my first semester. I vividly remember creating ocs to personify "inner demons" like Recluse (which I now know to be depression) and Shrapnel (probably ADHD) before I was ever diagnosed with anything. I also had exactly one "good guy" in addition to my original sona and I'd play out skits in my head, sometimes to help me be productive, sometimes out of boredom, or to reflect on myself.

Is this plurality? I feel like I can sympathize with systems if it is, but I also feel like the concept is really diverse and complicated and hard to approach ^^' I'd like to break down some of these walls I've built around the topic, if anyone is willing to work with me

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wiggles
@wiggles

remember that “plurality” spans a huge range of experiences and “singlet” is barely a coherent concept. if you find plurality to be a useful lens to examine and describe your experiences with, you can be plural!

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rabbitwedding999
@rabbitwedding999

thank oml, I just, hate being in denial constantly despite my experiences feeling so damn real. sometimes I feel disrespectful to other systems and plural folk, especially after seeing someone say "the community would rip you apart for being a faker" so it just made me feel like, eough. ty so much.

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wiggles
@wiggles

you gotta remember the “endos dni” people are on the same level of seriousness as the “you must be THIS trans to be valid” people— we must destroy the constructed binaries for liberation, not enforce the Real Ones

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obsidianflow
@obsidianflow

yeah thats a pretty normal thing to happen id say! if you're trauma formed you can often split due to anything stressful
but yeah the denial is.. ehgh. Even me being a sys for over 3 years I still dont fully feel correct saying it ahah

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lnc0
@lnc0

I meeaann, we live in a society that constantly reinforces that systems can't possibly exist, so it's not unusual to be "out" and still in "denial"! Takes a while to undo that programing. That's not on you, like.

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LeminWedj
@LeminWedj

sometimes we get the thought that maybe this system isnt really multiple people as much as it is one person. and then another headmate pops out and says stop. so i kinda understand that feeling.

our system is really hard to distinguish most of the time, which is why we never really think about it. i do know once things get stressful, everyone here becomes a little more prominent.

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theyggdrasilsystem
@theyggdrasilsystem

We've studied a lot of this to prepare for our eventual bachelors psych, AS WELL AS seen a LOT of systems around, and. let me tell you.

We are pretty damn sure there is no "normal." Every darn system has something different, with different traditions, limitations, operations, you NAME it.

You're fine, king/kings. Label yourself as you wish, or proudly wear none at all.

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EmpressRoth
@EmpressRoth

I thought I was plural back in highschool, but I think denial put me back into hiding it. Years later it re-emerged, but it's different now. Most of my headmates haven't come back, and the one that did changed a lot since then too

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Anarchie
@Anarchie

shit, i've been a system for nearly 20 years and i literally went "what if i'm faking" because the subject of getting a diagnosis came up. the. the system original doesn't front anymore how am i faking.

but yeah you're good it makes sense

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