one of the few useful things that my mother taught me growing up was "when you're in a crisis, bring in all the resources you can, no matter how small and no matter who they are". so I'm biting the bullet and asking for help here as well
(there's an irony here given that my mother is a narcissist who completely fails to provide resources to other people without treating everything like a transaction, but that's not what this post is about)
I spent about a decade on disability due to severe psychological problems, but for a number of reasons including finances, family, and vaguely successful therapy, I went back to work a few years ago, basically starting over from scratch because an employment gap like that puts you back in the "entry level" tier regardless of what your skills actually are
after some bouncing around, I ended up working for the city's public information services, which felt like a good fit and it seemed likely that I would end up a permanent employee and no longer need to do anything customer-facing, as I was one of the highest-rated people they had per customer surveys and the like. then the plague hit, and all kinds of things got put on hold
and then in early 2021 Texas froze over, 2/3rds of the state was without power, and I ended up being part of the disaster response because I was one of the few city employees whose apartment still had electricity and internet. and not surprisingly, this exacerbated all of the various Problems I had, and gave many of my work skills a nice shiny coating of PTSD
my bosses understood that I had been Damaged by these events, but they didn't have any open positions to move me to that would keep me away from the triggers, so I ended up leaving the department and started working for a small, specialized computer hardware company instead, starting in sales support (mostly navigating UPS fuckups), and then moving to tech support as they realized I knew more about shit than most of their existing tech people did
and then this company turned out to be in much worse financial shape than the owner had let on, and I got laid off almost a year ago. I'm back on SSDI and receiving some help from family members, but they can't keep this up permanently and my partner and I are starting to build up debts, and my attempts at finding employment just aren't working. this is in part because most of my skillset is based around customer service of some kind, and a significant chunk of those jobs are now things I can no longer handle emotionally without panic attacks
I need to work remotely because I have a partner who is now even more disabled than I am, and because we need to be able to leave the state relatively soon since, you know, Texas is run by Nazis now and they would very much like to put my partner in a camp. I would like to avoid anything that involves taking phone calls because working disaster response on the phone for twelve hours a day for a week during the 2021 winter storms has made answering the phone a mild but distinct PTSD trigger, but I can manage that if I have to
what I can't do is anything that's going to involve telling people in danger than I cannot help them. this means anything involving Life Events: I cannot handle things related to health insurance or medical care, anything involving debt or mortgages or finances, etc. I will also not work in any field that I consider harmful, like cryptocurrencies and its related shit, real estate investment or other landlordism, etc. I've had to turn down a number of recruiters over this kind of thing already because I cannot accumulate any more damage at this point
my primary skill is triage, not in a medical sense, but in the more general "figure out what the actual problem is and pull in the appropriate resources to get it fixed if I can't fix it myself". I've done this for technical support, I've done this for navigating government agencies and university departments, I've done this for sales. I'm good at finding potential problems before things actually break, and I'm good at writing up what I've found for technical and process documentation
in short, based on my notifications you're likely following me because of either this post about how most people can't model systems or this post about writing a book "for smart people who are not computer people", and those basically explain what I do well: I model large complicated systems (technical or organizational) and I explain them to people who are having problems with them. I would link a resume with more specifics but I'm trying to remain vaguely anonymous on this account for the safety of my partner
so. I need some help here. my pseudonymous email address is in my profile (for people who are logged in), and if anyone has suggestions or an actual company that's hiring that will not cause me any more damage, please either comment or email, as I am all ears. it's very possible that I've already tried something you might want to suggest, and that's fine; I'm having to be very non-specific in this and I will not be annoyed if that happens
please save your money for people who are in danger and/or have fewer resources. at this moment we are fed and housed
and if there is nothing you can help with: thank you for reading anyway