I took a comp day that was owed to me on Friday, giving me a rare three day weekend. I knew that I needed some rest and had planned to do basically nothing on Friday, then try to do "something fun" on Saturday that would be more active. Instead, I haven't really left the couch much since Friday morning other than to eat or go to bed. I just don't have any energy right now.
It shouldn't come as a huge surprise; I'm just really dumb about recognizing when I'm burning out. I started my job at Archive in November, started HRT in January, came out professionally and to my family in March, moved from Portland to the Bay in June, and dealt with a historically difficult service outage right after Independence Day (which is how I earned the comp day). I somehow also managed to release a two hour documentary and write a bunch of things in there as well.
So yeah... I'm still feeling wiped, and I don't really have a quick solution. I just need time to recover. At the same time, I've found that rotting on the couch alternating between watching TV and Having a Bad Time on the Websites isn't really doing much good for me. So I'm doing something that I've been saving for a long time for just this kind of moment: I'm replaying the RPGs of my youth.
I decided to start with the Sega CD Lunar games, which are incredibly special and personally important to me. I'm the quintessential Sega CD Kid: I was a little neurodivergent dork who grew up to be a queer adult with an unhealthy obsession with multimedia CD-ROMs and weird video games. Both games were released around a very rough time in my childhood: I was dealing with a lot of trauma and instability in my family, and I was starting to go through Wrong Puberty.
I'm not totally sure how I'm going to feel about these games revisiting them. I lost interest in following the series after SSSC (largely due to the Big Plot Change, which I thought ruined the game) and a series of disappointing remakes and the godawful DS game. I've only briefly touched the originals since finishing them back in the 90s.
Anyway, I'm going to loosely journal here about my replays and hope that a bit of comfort gaming helps me recover from burnout.