It's been four months since I released PlayStation Experiment 2, and a lot has happened since. Like... a whole fucking lot. I can't believe it's only been four months, because it feels closer to four years. It's not like I've disappeared during that time. I've definitely been Posting. But consistent posting has kinda masked a lot of other things I've been dealing with.
Anyway, this is more for me than anything, but it's also a stealth "transition journal," and people seem to like when I write about my transition.
Also, this is gonna get pretty long because I have a lot that I want to cover.
It isn't that my transness isn't a huge part of my life, because it is. And it isn't that I haven't had to wrestle with those years that I spent unhappy and in denial, because I have and still do. It's that the spark that was the true me survived. Something in me never gave out hope. I kept growing in the ways I could. My tranness was ultimately the huge missing piece that helped me put it all together. That doesn't void the work that I did on myself prior, because in many ways it was a necessary precursor to accepting myself as trans.
