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Cirno the Hellbelly

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A 30-something non-binary femme who's into all kind of weird growth stuff.

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I think the thing that pisses me off most about the internet nowadays is that I've been working on myself for years to understand more and be a better person and internet culture as a whole hasn't progressed spiritually past being weird, antisocial teenagers

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Did You Know:

  • You're not supposed to be angry and sad all the time
  • Growing up means learning how to control your emotions and know what is and isn't worth your time
  • If something offends you, investigate inside yourself as to why and whether it's worth getting mad at a stranger online about
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Christine Suggs is a nonbinary, fat cartoonist who draws in a simple-line, brightly colored cartoony style. The palette of the comic is shades of blues and pinks, with Christine's skin tone a sandy-peach color. Narration: I've always had a complicated relationship with my body. Image: A young Christine with indigo blue/black chin-length bob pokes at their belly while standing before a round mirror. The background is blue and they wear a pink t-shirt and pants. Narration: But then I discovered body positivity through Instagram and various podcasts. I learned about intuitive eating, joyful movement, and most importantly, that it was possible to be both FAT & HAPPY (Last two words written in pink balloon-y letters). Image: A hot pink background showcases a blue yoga mat, blue copy of the book "Health at EVERY SIZE" by Linda Bacon, and a blue iPhone with plug-in earbuds. Narration: It also took years of therapy, but eventually I realized that my body is good, and I am more than my body. "Phew!" Exhales the adult Christine, who is sitting against a peachy-pink background, leaning on one arm. They wear a light blue sports bra and indigo-black pants that match their shaved-on-the-sides-and-spikey-on-top crop of hair. "It's okay to be fat!"
Narration: As I learned to love my body, I learned to love myself, even the parts of myself I was afraid of. I came out as bisexual and my fashion sense quickly evolved to match my newfound queerness. Image: Six different incarnations of Christine stand against a light blue background. Christine 1, standing awkwardly and looking down: Shaggy, chin-length hair, zipped-up indigo-black jumper, blue jeans, and blue-black sneakers. Christine 2 stands a little more confidently, striking a bit of a coy pose: Shaggy short hair, blue t-shirt, black-blue tighter jeans, blue sneakers. Christine 3 Looks surprised at their own outfit: Very short hair, pink slip-on shoes, and a short white sleeveless summer dress with blue stripes. Christine 4 stands waving at us, looking content: Short hair, white sleeveless blouse with collar, long pink skirt, and blue fancy shoes with tiny heels. Christine 5 Stands super confidently, hands on hips, legs in a strong stance: Pink crop of hair on top, shaved on the sides. They wear a pink jumpsuit and black-blue sneakers. Christine 6 is in the middle of a hopping pose, landing on one foot with the other leg bent behind them. They make the V sign with their fingers, looking delighted. They longer crop of pink hair on top of their head is off-set by the shaved sides. They wear a bright pink sleeveless jumper-like suit and blue sandals.
Narration: I changed my appearance more and more, chasing this strange feeling that eventually I'd come to identify as gender euphoria. I felt POWERFUL, QUEER, BRAVE, confident. Image: Against a salmon-pink backdrop, various incarnations of Christine float in different poses. Some of them are fully nude, showing their belly stretchmarks, unshaved legs, and mermaid leg tattoo. Their hair length and style changes across the scene. Articles of blue clothing float around with them. "More jumpsuits!" A tiny Christine in overalls exclaims. Narration: I wore so many crop tops, proudly flaunting my belly and boobs in a way I could never have dreamed of when I was younger. Image: In a blue grocery store, a masked Christine pushes a shopping cart. Their blue-black mask matches their crop top, and contrasts against their hot pink bottoms. Narration: But even as I got more and more comfortable showing my body, I felt less and less like it was a woman's body. The label of "woman" was like a shirt that didn't fit anymore. Image: A salmon-colored shirt sits over a light pink background.
Narration: Eventually I came out as genderqueer/nonbinary and transgender. Basically, I don't identify as either a man or a woman. When someone sees me, I want them to think: "they're queer!" "And hot!" Confidently adds Christine, who is reclining seductively on the bright pink floor, against a light blue background. Narration against a pale pink-peach background: A lot of trans and nonbinary narratives in the media focus on dysphoria* and the medical transition some trans and nonbinary people seek to alleviate that feeling. But I didn't experience dysphoria in that way. *The sometimes very intense feeling of your gender identity not matching up with your body. Narration: For a while I felt like I wasn't trans enough because I don't want to alter my body. In a blue room, Christine sits on a peach couch fretting as they ask, "Maybe I'm just doing this for attention?? what if it's just a phase? I bought a binder, but I don't want top surgery. Is that okay? It's not like I have real dysphoria, I just like playing with gender!" The text "internalized transphobia" points to them.
"But following queer and nonbinary fat people online reminds me that trans people can look like anyone!" Christine says with bright pink stars in their eyes as they admire several other fully nude people. They are all in a salmon colored space with one person who has orange-y brown skin, small breasts, a round tummy, thick thighs, and long flowing black-blue hair that swoops down to their tummy. Another person has chestnut brown skin, a swoop of short blue-black hair, facial hair stubble, hair over their chest, forearms, and belly. They have salmon-pink scars over their pectoral muscles. A third person with pale beige skin sits in a blue wheelchair demurely with their wavey blue hair flowing around them. Narration: Now when I look in the mirror, I see my body for what it is: a fat, soft, and powerful vessel. It's a nonbinary body, complete with [arrows point from the following words, indicating these body parts on Christine] killer boobs, tattoos, body hair, stretchmarks, and a squishy belly. Image: Against a blue backdrop, Christine sits nude posing proudly in front of their reflection, admiring all the features of their body. Narration: I fought long and hard to love this body and I want to continue that. Against a bright pink background, Christine declares, "My body is fat, trans, and mine." as they hug themself.

"My body is fat, trans, and mine." For Nonbinary Awareness Week, we're re-sharing Christine Suggs' comic from our archive about their gender journey.

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Traits that make people terrible moderators

These are just some observations I've made being a moderator in multiple settings, in wonderful teams and bad teams, as well as being in communities that have absolutely festered due to poor moderation. Many of these traits are things you can identify before the person is even appointed a moderator in the first place. (Most of this applies to large-scale servers and/or communities, and isn't always applicable to small and/or personal servers. I am not writing some sort rule book absolutely everyone has to follow, these are just traits that would not make the mod-team cut, to me, you don't have to agree with me.)

  1. Having any hesitation with confrontation.
    (being a moderator requires confrontation, this is not negotiable. if the idea of confronting difficult people gives you anxiety or panic attacks, don't apply to be a moderator)
  2. Being too eager to confront and/or unable to use tact/kindness when confronting.
    (those that seek confrontation should not be moderators)
  3. Gets personally offended easily.
    (any mod that is constantly getting into fights with other users because of perceived slights, will make the whole community feel unable to talk to the mod team)
  4. Is incapable of repairative reading.
    (moderators need to be capable of reading the best out of someone and not jumping to negative conclusions)
  5. Lacking in compassion.
    (using tact and kindness leads to faster, more permanent, diffusion of conflicts)
  6. Views any confrontation as a personal attack.
    (being a moderator means getting a lot of questions, suggestions, and well-meaning 'confrontation' and needs to be met without hostility. ps: tact and firmness are not the same as hostility)
  7. Cares more about their own wants than the server. This can manifest in the form of, in the case of a server/community created for a single individual, ignoring comforts/needs of the individual; in the case of a collective community, being unwilling to negotiate or compromise with the rest or the community/team.
  8. Likes to control others.
    (moderation is about cohesive harmony for a shared goal, not control)
  9. Incapable of being objective and applying the same rules appropriately to all uses.
    (those that expect exceptions for their friends or people they want to impress, or express any other bias of application of the rules, should not be moderators)
  10. Incapable of following the rules, themselves.
    (if someone wasn't following the rules before they became a mod, it won't change when they do become a mod)
  11. Wants to be a mod for the social collateral, not because they want the community to run smoothly.
    (those that are constantly vying for attention and validation, that then apply for being a mod, should not be made mods)
  12. Lacks humility.
    (knowing when to admit you're wrong or have overstepped, is important to being a good moderator)
  13. Lacks the self-awareness of knowing when to put something down and walk away.
    (as a moderator, self-moderation is a vital skill that must be learned to be able to moderate others)
  14. Refuses to communicate directly and clearly in any given circumstance.
    (vague communication is bad moderation, any user being approached by a mod should know exactly what they did wrong, and what is expected for future change)
  15. Is prone to soap-boxing/lecturing instead of being concise.
    (this goes back to communicating clearly and directly; being overly verbose and preachy can make it difficult to understand. You need to give room to allow the member you are confronting to talk and ask questions.)
  16. Incapable of deferring to others with grace where appropriate.
    (knowing when you're not the best mod for the job, when you're lacking in information, when your ideas just won't work, or when you're compromised is important. and knowing how to properly delicate tasks is a Must for an admin)