about a month ago I deleted the page for my 7 year project because I was tired of thinking about what a total failure it was. I still feel like this was the right decision given that there were multiple bugs that made the game unplayable and the relative lack of response I got out of it. I sometimes think about going back, fixing more bugs, and maybe releasing it again, but I havent found the time or willpower to go back.
I dont feel like making games anymore because the development process was so terrible and end result was so bad. I dont think ive ever put so much effort into something only to get basically nothing out of it. why would I try again?
I have mostly depended on creative side work as a way to get personal motivation, and without it I feel pretty rudderless. I'm not sure if I'm getting that back anytime soon.
I've gotten so much more out of working on my bikes than trying to make videogames, and I find indie game development culture to be pretty toxic. maybe I can find some other hobbies that have a more reciprocal relationship