i think i lose sense of who i am when i'm not around others. i think i feel empty if i'm not in perpetual connection with someone else. i think i want to be close to my girlfriends because just being near them, having the option of talking to them or hugging them whenever i want to, would make me feel so much happier than i am now.
i think i need others to live. i think the way im living now doesn't allow for that.
but i think that's okay, because time does not stand still. i will get there.