TL;DR: my government feels like it's actively trying to kill me. i need money so i don't fucking die, because this government is fucking trying to kill me. i can't fuckin work, but i can't get disability because i answered the question "can you tie your shoes" with "yes." the government is now withholding the meaningless $300 a month I could barely use for food for the month because of a discrepancy in my income reporting and my bank statements of $20. I'm being thrown into complete and total poverty by my government over $20. Help.
more specific shit about how fucked this stupid province/country is under the break.
i've tried calling most days out of the past month to try and resolve the issues preventing me from receiving Saskatchewan Income Support, a $300 a month benefit that i started receiving automatically after applying for disability support - which I did not receive, because i was asked "can you tie your shoes" and i answered "yes."
So even the fucking puny amount of $300 - which must go to food and clothes but none of the shit that can improve my immediate circumstances like therapy or physiotherapy because i can't afford both - is now being held from me. I've tried calling for the past two and a half weeks, sometimes twice in a day. and I receive the following automated recording:
"We are experiencing higher than normal call volumes and cannot take your call at this time. Please call us again later." click, they hung up.
There was a single time in the past 14 times i have called that I got past that recorded message, and instead received another:
"We are experiencing higher than normal call volumes. Please wait and your call will be answered by one of our social workers in the order it was placed. Your position in the queue is 48."
I wish I was fucking kidding. 48 callers ahead of me, and I am expected to wait on hold the entire fucking time. I stayed on call for 20 minutes. I moved to 44th in the queue. If my math is right, I would have needed to wait more than 14 hours to have my call received.
I'm trying to get in contact with disability advocacy groups within the province, but none of my emails have been answered and at this point, phone calls are an extreme source of suicidal ideation given how futile every single motherfucking call to resolve this stupid fucking problem over $20 has been.
I don't fucking know. I've done all I could. All I can do now is fucking wait until July, so I can apply for disability again, and just straight up tell them I can't do a god damn thing without hurting myself. because apparently, being able to tie your shoes means you can lift 20 pound boxes at a Walmart on concrete floors for eight hours a day.
I would post a gofundme to get the fuck out, but I have nowhere to go. my supportive girlfriend lives in florida which is currently excruciatingly hostile to trans people to the point that makes me moving there impossible - not because it would be hostile to me even though it would be, but because i would add an additional weight her household would have to carry if they're looking at fleeing to openly supportive states like Montana. So I'm just motherfucking stuck here, nowhere to go, with disability advocacy groups either ignoring my emails or getting fucking shut down from lack of funding as this government continues its genocide against poor people through austerity measures.
so i don't fuckin know. use the paypal link above and give me money to live another month or two. or don't. the fuck does it matter anyways, im just dead either way.