i don't think i've ever been so consistently comfortable in a relationship like i have been with kata. i miss her often, sure, but it's easy to squash loneliness because a) i know she's not avoiding me, she's just busy; and b) i know she loves me, and she knows i love her, and i know she knows i love her.
like, there aren't many relationships i've had (read: literally none) where i can just feel... content. peaceful. sometimes i feel sad i can't hold her or snuggle her or kiss her or hold her hand or build lego with her or ride rollercoasters with her, but it's easy to convert the sadness into happiness. i can't hold her hand and kiss her face and scream at the top of a coaster with her now, but when i'm finally able to, it's going to be fucking magical



