i know i keep venting but my intrusive thoughts are so bad rn
i.m trying to fall asleep and i keep getting intrusive thoughts about death , like me dying or my mom dying suddenly and not just that but the entire scenario of what would unfold after like the funeral and the aftermath
and also i literally keep thinking im going to die every time i let myself/my body try and rest or relax. i need to see a therapist again really
there's just this repeated theme with me and death, like every time something small happens i think im gonna legitimately die it's intense and i hate it