overall it's been a pretty nice release day for my album. people have said some very nice things about it, seemingly everyone has their own favorite track, and i'm glad to finally make public this thing i'm proud of. probably the listening party on sunday (3pm edt) is going to be the big capstone event, actually. it'll probably feel larger than today did
release days always carry strange weights, as you have been anticipating sharing a big body of work for some time, preparing to the best of your ability everything you're going to say about it and when and where and how, and then it all hits at once. ever since my first album(s), i've tried to not set any expectations for myself because, as i imagine all of us learn from our first releases, it is really difficult to get people to care and soul-crushing if they don't. maybe broadly speaking i always hope to 'do better than the previous one' whatever that means, but i just try to go at it as freely as possible and do what i can
one thing that always surprises (or perhaps disappoints) me is when folks in the status of like 'close irl friends' never seem interested in my art, but i try to remember that friends =/= fans and take those "congrats on the release"s with grace. support is support. and i guess it's basically the same thing as the age-old meme of "are you gonna come to my show" anyway. i dunno. people either care or they don't. and i also am reminded of that story aivi told about their dad listening to their music and going "ohhh, i think i understand now - your music is niche". hohoho... how easy it is for us to forget how we are perceived by most everyone else. doubly so when it's as challenging of a work as mine is this time
hmm, just some thoughts i felt like putting down. overall i'm really happy, and i'm definitely looking forward to sunday. i think it's gonna be really great. then, onto the next half-dozen projects : ) i have some good broad plans for the rest of this year...
