Yup.
Unintentionally, I forgot my meds on a trip I just came back fromโmy mind feels so chaotic it's hard to pick thoughts up it because it feels like so much has happened. This was pretty much par for the course prior to when I was diagnosed with ADHD. Since I know what my mind feels like when it has neat, tidy piles of junk on the floor rather than junk covering the floor, what the meds are doing for me is pretty clear.
I've thrown myself off of every possible routine recently; my life has changed so much in the past month that I've barely had time to process. The CJ of three weeks ago was not 30 minutes~an hour late for every appointment they had; if they could make it at all. The CJ of now is. I have a hard time accepting that this is where I'm at the moment I get worried texts from people saying, "I'm at [place of appointment]...where are you?"
If someone else was having the same struggles and asked my advice, I'd tell them to find compassion. Do some meditation. Journal. But for the life of me, I can't do any of those things right now. But I guess... I'm making a chost?
Sure, brain. I guess we're gonna post it.
