i feel hard right now. like packed, dry earth. what made me feel this way realize i feel this way is thinking about starting kanji SRS again. i don't have it in me to try to start building another routine rn, another habit. it requires softness for that-- fertile soil. and right now i'm struggling to keep up with exercise, and in general i feel like i'm strugging to keep any part of my routine. moving really threw my whole shit off! i've been waking up at 4 in the morning!! how do you rebuild a routine from scratch anyway? no i don't know how serious that inquiry is

