Every year I'm a little more bummed out by how much I hate the approach of my birthday. It used to be one of my favourite days of the year, but 'Alles Gute' doesn't hit the same as 'Happy Birthday,' and between being naturally pretty shy and COVID and and and over the last few years, there's just... no friends here to make a fuss over it. It's all just a reminder of how little I amount to, and how diluted that is by time.
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in reply to @jaidamack's post:
I think you matter a lot to a ton of people and I wish more of them were around to celebrate an important day with you.
More Mack is better, so I think it's worth celebrating. <3
I understand. My birthday falls more or less on the same day as one of my in-laws' and mine is pretty much subsumed to theirs, not least of which because I don't have any friends here. Also she's old and my tendency is not to be a bitch and make a fuss about it (I did just make an excuse and not show up one year), but my entire life is more or less a series of one-sided compromises. not sure I'm going to make it another year
Ah, doctor. I'm sorry. But... fuck, hey. Same hat! One of my in-laws has a birthday just a couple days after mine, and it's always an event in this dink town; I get to sit and watch it all come together, or even help organize. Yayyy. Likewise, what kind of an ass would I be to kick up a fuss about that, though? Mm. It's funny - in a kind of 'morbid cosmos' way - how similar our situations sound, sometimes. It'd be nice if on occasion they lined up in a way that wasn't shite, too. I'm still gratified every time I get to see your icon pop up anywhere... it's not much to offer, but blaring on the fog horn as we pass always makes me smile.
It's nice for me to have somebody who knows almost exactly what it's like, so at least you've got THAT going for you! <3 I dunno, I feel like I'm going to have to dig myself out of this somehow, whether it's taking a job I don't want, or really addressing the presentation situation, or heaven forbid starting the novel again. Anything that makes me feel like I'm moving forward and not hostage to being marooned in the Arctic. But yes, it invariably brightens my mood to see you and say stupid stuff to each other. :)