2d moe robot girl just tryin' to survive in a 3d world, beep boop! ^.^~

Founder and Director of DemureSoft


back to job searching again. i hate being so picky about jobs but there are numerous things that make shit unbearable for me. i still feel like kind of a coward for the circumstances behind me leaving my last job. i feel very weak, especially when i see other people who have held a single job for many years without a ton of trouble.

every time i'm considering a change in jobs the thought of something gamedev related comes up again, and then i look at the state of working in games and realize it's locked off. i wouldn't survive being swallowed into a 60 hour work week crunch hell as a QA person, game studios aren't interested in self-centered experimental artist types like i often am, not good enough at coding, no money to start a studio myself. it's a depressing reality, but one i often think about.

it's very easy for me to think about "capitalism is hell, everyone hates their job, it doesn't make you a bad person, being bad at jobs isn't a personal failing" which is certainly true, but that doesn't change that i need to work. i gotta tough these things out. i DO have to be an adult sometimes.


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