You see, my heart is actually full of love. Love for everyone, love for living things, love for the world around me. I've pretty much always been like this, and it's a trait that I think is appropriate for a goddess (aspiring). It's a kind of parental love, though not unconditional (as "unconditional love" doesn't really exist).
When I see some harm being done, the emotional response is something like "you are harming my children". Of course, I try to react with compassion, try to understand why would do that, try to think from their point of view. Sometimes, they lash out because of trauma or emotions they couldn't control. Sometimes, they didn't know they were causing harm, and can be taught to causing, or even undo, the harm. Other times...
Sometimes there is no rationale other than "I wanted to hurt something". Sometimes they simply don't care that harm was caused. They will do it again, and again, until they are forced to stop. Could they have been taught kindness? Maybe a long time ago, but their cruelty has been rewarded and reinforced for far too long.
How am I supposed to react with anything but rage to those seek only to hurt. How am I supposed to feel anything but bloodlust towards those who seem unwilling to be redeemed. How am I supposed to have a heart free from violence when violence is the only way to protect my children?
