I don't really know how to write a post like this, so it might not be very 'good' (whatever that means in this kind of scenario). but, I've lived in an emotionally intolerable situation my entire life and I Can't Fucking Do It Anymore. I absolutely do not think I'm capable of working a job, and without that I feel immensely hopeless that I have any option besides someone just taking me in, with whatever burdens that entails for them. So, on the off chance that anyone in Nova Scotia HRM sees this and is able and willing to do that, please let me know and we'll figure Something out.
I don't know if this sort of thing is possible, maybe I'm a naive idiot for even asking - genuinely don't know how this kind of thing works. Which is relevant, because I think that I'm kind of dependent on others to live. I'm fine with managing some things myself but there's a lot I was simply never taught and ideally I'd have help filling in gaps and keeping to some habits that I should have but can't much keep up alone. Beyond that I'm also barely able to interface with societal systems at all, it's always a tremendously anxiety-inducing, stressful, difficult process when unaided that I inevitably procrastinate on to avoid subjecting myself to those feelings. I guess this is to say that I wouldn't need to be full-time taken care of or anything, but it's probably not quite a case where I could just move in and be largely left alone. I truly just want a place where I can feel remotely comfortable about not having to abruptly return to the people I'm with now, while also having a positive and actually healthy relationship with a person I live with for once. And just to be helped in the ways I need help, though I'm quite self-conscious about being too much for someone and would be perfectly able to manage 'down periods' where I'm largely on my own if needed.
It feels like that's asking a lot, and it is of course okay if a hypothetical person reading this feels that's a step too far whereas otherwise it seemed very doable.
This feels kind of detail-light, but I'm hesitant to say 'too much' publicly because of a mix of shame and some kind of distinct discomfort I can't quite pin down. Of course if anyone actually contacted me about potentially doing this I'd be willing to say more, but I already hate posting this in the first place (like fuck, there is evidently a deeply ingrained, deathly aversion to publicly sharing this kind of thing) so I'd really rather not do that unless prompted. I'm not exactly in the most populated place of all time and I doubt this post will actually lead to anything, so like... fuck giving a bunch of details upfront. But I'm desperate enough to try anyway.
If there's anything I don't say here which I probably should, let me know >.< I might not have thought of a thing or two...
bit more of an emergency situation now...
I still doubt that this post will help matters any, but I might as well try >~<