honestly i never got diagnosed with ASD but looking back on several events or friend group dynamics throughout my life, and observing many tendencies and personality traits i have, such as my one track mindedness and occasional slowness to pick up on unspoken social cues (or at the very least, extreme caution so as to ensure im not missing them), im thoroughly convinced i have it and the only thing that's really stopped me from really identifying with it is my hesitancy to self diagnose. the only problem is getting an assessment as an adult is a gigantic pain, and honestly if im convinced i have it there's probably little point in getting it confirmed. i guess the only benefit a diagnosis would bring me is it'd give me more of a push to just lean into my aforementioned tendencies, which is something i can just try to consciously remind myself of and try to be more unapologetic about