i realize the patch notes give the impression that i have been some form of Ill a lot lately, and unfortunately that impression is accurate! personal post under the cut
i am still not sure if i am experiencing Long Covid or not. when i got covid last july (and missed two of the first four weeks of cohost public operation, which sucked!) it took me a long time to recover fully with normal energy and brain function levels again.
my Full Recovery synced up to around when load started piling up because of the twitter acquisition and seemed to backslide a bit before winter break. i'm not sure if i'm feeling so much worse for other reasons or if it's because i was able to summon some last reserve of strength to get through the roughest period of site operations ever, have exhausted that reserve, and am still experiencing Long Covid without the added adrenaline of "oh god oh fuck we need to keep the website up."
regardless of cause, i haven't been able to work a full week since before winter break, which has been absolutely miserable. as i've talked about in the past, we are a small team which means that health issues impact us disproportionately. i would very much like to know why this is happening, but getting medical care without a months long waiting period has been impossible, so i'm left fully in the dark. all i know is that the things i'd expect to help don't, no amount of sleep makes me feel less tired, i keep having random bouts of awful headaches and nausea, and my primary care physician was deeply unconcerned about these things last time i saw him.1
i wish that my health issues didn't have such a big impact on cohost. it feels bad. i don't have any sort of conclusion here because i haven't even gotten that far in my own thinking; we are not quite at the "acceptance" phase yet.
that's all, thanks for reading.
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i ask that commenters keep diagnosis attempts to a minimum. while i appreciate the thought, the reality is that i don't want to post my medical history, past testing/diagnosis attempts, etc etc etc, and without that information attempting to make an accurate diagnosis is not really possible. thanks for understanding.
