i'm leaving town tomorrow to run a Vibe Check on the metro area i'm most likely moving to once my lease is up (being in florida, even if tallahassee specifically is still Fine, remains a ticking time bomb) and maaaaaan i'm really hoping it goes well because i have staked kind of a lot on this being The Place.
i have a lot of very complicated feelings about moving again. i don't want to! i moved back to tallahassee to be close to my family, because i'd hoped i could make a home here. at the time, this was not a bad decision and it was not at all evident exactly How Quickly shit would escalate. i'm mad about needing to move cross country again (from a practical, logistical, and financial standpoint), i'm mad about getting forced out of my home, i'm mad that my rent is about to go up by A Lot for a much smaller living space.
my goal is that i never have to do this again. trying to pick a locale that's Unlikely To Turn To Shit, that i can afford and think i can bear to live in (i hate living in cities, which complicates Fucking Everything) is complicated and awful and stressful and i'm just mad i have to do this.
ANYWAY. if you see me in the boston area this weekend, you can come say hi but don't be weird about it. thanks

