i love a good gradient of feelings, a complex multi-dimensional experience of feelings, a realization that im feeling multiple seemingly-conflicting things at once and yet they're all there.
dysphoria and euphoria are pretty useful words for us when we're describing dysphoria and euphoria, its just like uhhhhhhhhh not all thats out there. i guess it was harder to see that when we were in extreme dysphoria mode from being over-exposed to toxic gendernorms radiation. but coming out of it we just kinda oscillated between it's so fucking over and we're so fucking back on gender. and like there's only so much you can do about that stuff sometimes but i think we encouraged it, and it kinda suckedassss
