Aside from me being "single and looking" in a somewhat typical sense, there's this entire other range of emotions I have going on that… I feel like I should try to find more eloquent, artful ways to get them off my chest in the future, but—
Like. There's the sometimes-discussed "friend crush" or "squish" or whatever. "this person is super cool and…", so on. Totally a thing I experience. Or the "this person's fursona is extremely hot; also, the person themself seems cool, so—" kind of feeling. Both quite familiar to me!
And then there's the maybe… stranger emotions. There's a bunch of these, but the one that's really in my mind today is the "I really like this friend, but I specifically really want to be helpful and useful for them, because I feel unusually safe and secure when I'm doing what they ask me to do" kind of feeling. (If you're now wondering how to make this kind of dynamic happen: you can't, and attempting to force it is just going to backfire.) But with friends who I am like this with, well, heck. It just makes me feel warm and also this strange mix of fluttery and reassured inside when they're in charge of a situation.
If I'm like this with you, that's a pretty uncommon thing you're getting from me!
