I hope this is the year where i finally get my shit together. Finally get an online portfolio going, finally start my ko-fi, finally get projects I said should be done, well, done, and finally start going out of my comfort zone
Like idk I've been dealing with my own deathly shyness online and i think being hooked onto Twitter's caustic interaction design for so long has been causing it. Since it's been tanking, its hitting me to post more on other socials to keep in touch with pals I've made on twitter, so yay that's a good start! Now to finally get past the overwhelming feeling of making my own website bc ofc i want it coded a specific way lol, and also interacting with more people in discord
Another factor is work making me emotionally exhausted, and tbh it's been getting better! I have an actual schedule I can plan around as opposed to my previous manager throwing darts on dates and times for me, which made it fucking impossible to work with lol. Boss isnt fucking pestering me to sell more since I threatened to quit unless he gives me a raise lol. Job still makes me tired even with my schedule tho (especially this holiday season, and now I'm going to go into Returns Hell) so the hope is to find a wfh job and quit good ol retail sometime around summer. God I hope so
Another factor too is that I'm still going through home renovations and that is going to take up spoons as well. I really want to participate and help out teams and groups in game jams again but its frustrating that I can't 100% assure timeliness on my end. I miss working on a team and for once I'd actually like to lead a team to see how that would go, but idk if this will be the year for it.
Theres something about this year where I've felt happier in my personal life but my creative life has had to take a backseat, what with burnout caused by my job and me losing faith in my art skills along the way. Funny that even though December threw a lot at me this year that I couldn't complete Terrible Time's demo, I'm feeling a lot more hopeful and confident in myself as an artist and a writer now than I have in the past year. I hope I can ride that confidence and other positive feelings out in the next year