What everyone wants to belong to is a community but they keep winding up in audiences instead and I think this is the cause of a tremendous amount of suffering right now.

I press buttons until the light matrix shows colors I like. Currently working mostly with Elixir and Rust on various personal projects.
I'm the bitch who complains that the ending of Interstellar involves extremely inefficient transmission of information
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What everyone wants to belong to is a community but they keep winding up in audiences instead and I think this is the cause of a tremendous amount of suffering right now.
I'm good being in the audience, community means I need to be active within it and the threat of rejection is too much. Why was I cursed with nothing of value to say independent of others?!
I know this feeling all too well! Not all of us are cut out to be entertainers. There are other roles in a genuine community.
While looking for the source of this post, I also found this other post which says a little more about how these dynamics relate to combative/defensive fanbases. I don't agree with the conclusion at the end, but there's some decent food for thought there about those loyalties are cultivated by and exploited for marshaling fans as little personal armies.