Thinking a lot about how often stuff I am told is canonical queer media doesnt like, have any people that actually look like me in it? As a result I havent had quite the rich experience engaging with queer media that other folks might have.
Queer media has always been more an experience of like, taking something that actually resonates with me even if people dont typically associate it with queerness and making it queer by virtue of me, a queer person, engaging in an intertextual relationship with it. I think a lot about how my early experiences with things like Devil May Cry 3 was so much about me exploring and understanding gender and envisioning a self that I loved even if I didnt know that that was what I was doing at the time.
Even though my experiences interacting with other queer people and things that I am told are queer have largely been exhausting and alienating, I really value the way that Ive learned to express myself and find meaning or carve my way into things that werent necessarily meant for me.



