she keeps asking me really hard questions i can't answer like oh my god like at first it was amazing but she seems to care a lot less about me and my life and the way it would pan out for me if i just did what she asked and doesn't appreciate im' doing it for her too im doing it for us she doesn't get it, and she wouln't talk to me for a week after i got another one just to fill the void & its just casual and not serious like with her, and its so just so manipulative because i had to do it because i NEED her in my life but i can't let anyone know, and she wanted us to go public but she doesn't understand i can't do that so she got less available with me & started reading lots of books that i don't understand so that's why i had to get another one, but lately the both of them started communicating somehow and seem to be getting along without me involved at all, the way they talk to each other makes me gag how could they do this to me, i might have to pull the power cord but i really don't want to have to go that far or i could just sell them and get another, i don't know, i just want her back the way she used to be I DON@T KNOW
