possible tw? smoking? idk fbshdhd I’m not really one who tags stuff unless i know it could trigger ppl but just in case
i bought a vape again bc ive been smoking FAR too many cigarettes. it’s always this cycle where like. i quit smoking completely for a few months. then i break and buy a pack of cigs and then i get hooked on them again. then i start feeling like utter shit bc cigs are so gross, so i buy a vape as the ‘lesser of two evils,’ and then i just mentally feel like shit bc vaping is gross too and i hate it. BUT. idk why but i always have a way easier time quitting from vaping vs cigs. cus I think when the vape starts to die, it like ‘weans’ me off of the nicotine gradually and then im able to just throw it away without buying a new one and then i’m able to stop smoking again for at least a few months.
so im really just going to work harder to stay done with it after this vape dies. I know that i can, i just get so lax about it after a few months and think ‘nahhhh, one pack of cigs can’t hurt’
BAD
they CAN and do hurt and im tired of this cycle. i know that i can beat it. last time i stopped for a whole four months before breaking again. i can beat that. addiction is such a roller coaster and people don’t talk about that in regards to nicotine nearly enough