probably a big part of why i didn't want to mention anise's illness anywhere is the memory of some yahoo blaming me for styx's death. just completely out of left field. i think their reasoning was ① that feline coronavirus is often transmitted via litterboxes, therefore we must not have cleaned ours often enough (overlooking that ⓐ one of the other cats would've had to have fecv for that to happen, and ⓑ he probably caught it from the much more populous cattery where he was bred), and ② he was prescribed some heart medication for a murmur that could have become a problem some years down the road, and i ended up not giving it to him because drowsiness was one of the side effects and he was already sleeping most of the day and i wanted to spend time with him (which of course didn't matter at all, except that in hindsight i'm kind of fucking furious that the vet i went to kept obsessing over the heart murmur when he turned out to have a disease with a prognosis measured in weeks).
so just, you know, kind of skimming wikipedia and my own posts about the situation until they could find a crime to charge me with, and not thinking about it any harder than that
also when pearl died i saw someone leave just about the nastiest comment you could possibly make in that situation. i don't want to repeat it here. suffice to say if anise had died i would not want to hear the same sentiment about him as well
tbh though i'm kind of tired of letting angry abuse like this affect my behavior so much. it just fucks up my worldview in a way that's hard to explain, makes everything and everyone feel kind of unreal
but i miss aniseposting. anise is real good and i love his antics and i love when other people also enjoy his antics