ah fuck the adhd was bad and i lost the original draft of this post which means you get the worse version of my thoughts now. i've owned a vagina for over half a year now (which rules) and i've dilated over 500 times (which still sorta sucks). my mood has been oscillating between overwhelming optimism and depressed frustration as i go through this recovery process. it helps me to keep in mind that there is going to be a point in the future where i'll be more or less fully recovered and getting plowed by hot girls regularly. π€
i've had to get granulation tissue scraped three times now -- it's basically been once a month for the past little bit. the experience has felt worse each time but i think a lot of that has to do with fact that i am getting more sensation in the actual vaginal canal and that the affected areas have more sensation generally. it's definitely annoying to have this issue continue in such a prolonged manner but what else can i do except put the estrogen cream in my vagina and hope.
uhhhhh what else i've been able to have clitoral orgasms since like the third month of recovery and my surgeon has told me that my vagina looks really beautiful enough times that i'm starting to believe it (jk actually i've thought it looks really good before she said so (also i think she legally has to tell me it looks beautiful)). i gotta work on applying the scar gel more frequently but it always ends up way too tacky and irritating area. if anyone has tips for apply scar gel so it doesn't do that i'd appreciate it.
