I honestly feel like half of this year was me taking on projects to delay Beastiary Beas for some reason. Do you ever like know you're Doing a Trauma even if you can yet understand the context of it? lol Yeah, yeah.
Maybe it's a "Can't find out that following my dreams and desires will not change my life in any fundamental way if I don't try!" kind of thing which is like, very sad. I gotta push past this siilliinneessss