I think what truly heals you from caring about numbers that much is having a post actually blow up
its such an overwhelming experience (that tumblr lacks good ways of dealing with) that every time you feel down about not much attention, you can just remember that experience and go "actually I think I'm fine being on the relatively obscure side of things"
I saw an artwork seeming to get 1k notes in about 30 minutes since posting and I'm like
I guess you do get used to it, or eventually grow into it. it's probably that their posts didn't just suddenly become a banger after banger after banger.
but I think i would fucking crumble immediately!! that seems like so much! honestly most valuable are comments/replies, additions to posts, and comments in tags (which aren't visible through notifs on cohost). they're rare but they mean so much!!
