think we're finally getting used to our lifelong role as the initiator initiatrix. lots of ppl are just really bad at talking or rly bad at getting the ball rolling and idk why but we're really good at it. feels asymmetrical but sometimes there just needs to be someone willing to take the first step. internalizing that no it does not mean the other people don't care. we really are just Like This
we have a tendency to always want to speak up and plan things, we would always be the ones to organize get-togethers as a teen, we almost always have the majority of messages in a discord dm if we do "from: A" and "from: B" and check the tallies and it has little to do with how much the person likes us. we just always feel an itch to make sure Something Happens.
dunno how im meant to close this out. i feel like im not providign enough examples of this sort of thing
