i hate being forcibly reminded that to so many people i am The Enemy for reasons I never had a say in
that so many people in this world, expect me to constantly apologize and compensate for my background if they are to consider me a friend at all
that so many people I know now would abandon me if they found out the whole truth, because these stupid fucking categories matter more than my words or deeds to so many
im tired. tired of the guilt. tired of the alienation. tired of feeling like im forced to constantly prove that im "one of the good ones". tired of feeling haunted by who my family is, by the world i grew up in, by how I look, by the languages I do and don't speak.
I just want to be me. Judged on my own words and deeds alone, and nothing else...