The tabletop project I quietly left the playtesting team of because I felt like it was going in a yikes direction in the writing and because the lead dev was a little weird about me for my social and ethnic background, is exploding in drama over some Unspecified Thing said lead dev did, and its a little vindicating ngl
Once more proving my belief that that level of vitriolic anger and being Weird About People is a sign of rot beneath. Its not exactly a sign of a strong morality when you call someone who considered you a friend "one of the good ones" while turning around and publicly Poasting weird fantasies of vengeance on the "colonizers" that form half her family tree
I feel a bit for my old buddies there, but tbh idk you can really kick the lead dev off the project even so late. He's too tied in with what the project is.
...god we have some real fuckin rot in the Philippine tabletop scene. There's a fuckin reason why I basically disconnected from the whole thing save a few wargame hangouts with a friend.
also the people who took over are being extremely vague about what actually happened, and it's not a good look. They released a text post "update" that basically says Absolutely Nothing about what actually happened and instead focuses on The Future Off The Project, desperately believing the project even has a future when the lead dev and core of the project appears to have been milkshake ducked off screen without any clarification of what he even did...
I feel weird about it. I left that project behind, though doing so left me full of hurt and far, far more cynical about how other Filipinos see and treat me.
It was that lead dev's weird calls about my character in the playtest game and his posts on Twitter about Spain deserving to suffer in the modern day for colonial crimes that pushed me away
I was playing a character who was explicitly a mixed-race woman with half her roots laying outside the setting's Not!Philippines, and he singlehandedly dropped a "oh your ancestors you thought were from outside were actually originally exiles from the isles", twist directly into her backstory without consulting me, which, was just a weird way of handling a character who was, kinda a processing avatar/thesis statement about my own belief that having family origins outside the Philippines doesnt make me any less Filipino, any less a part of these islands. That call left a major bad taste in my mouth.
You can imagine how his "most hostile and fantasizing about violence anticolonial rhetoric possible" attitude also pushed me away, too. The last straw was when he called me "one of the good ones." Like. None of that's okay. But I doubt that's the sort of behavior that pushed him out of the project, considering it set the tone in there bad enough that I felt I had to leave.
So what the fuck did he do? This guy got hired to work on the Pathfinder 2E tian xia supplement, he's In The Industry, it's so weird to just. Remove him from his own project and not say way. Not a good look.
