tldr I made friends with a coworker :3 but she wanted my discord so I could play DnD with her group and like I want to but I'm also a queer nonbinary otherkin babyfur it/its puppygirl outside of my job and I feel conflicted about it
BUT YEAH YESTERDAY I HAD A REALLY NICE TALK WITH MY COWORKER!!!! I was stuck on the line with her bc my line is gonna be down until like next week bc one of our machines is getting replaced and so they had me on her line with her
and we like. Were talking. and it was nice :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3
We were talking about nerd shit. She talked a lot about a DnD campaign she was doing. Or like multiple campaigns she was doing and it was really nice to just listen for a while. It's nice hearing people talk about their little guys, awoo
And then we talked about BG3 but not a lot bc she never got out of Act I bc she kept wanting to make new characters skfhdk I hope she does continue the game though, she really liked playing Durge and I hope she gets to see more ;w;
But then she was like "oh yeah if you wanna join our dnd campaign you're more than welcome! we're all new to it so no pressure for anything" but then she asked for my discord and it's also like
hm!!! idk if i actually want to do that for reasons of my discord links back to a bunch of Adult Shit and i'm unsure how i feel about my in real life coworker potentially looking into any of it and learning all the freaky shit I'm into
and also like
I go by my deadname at work, I present male at my job, so I'd prolly have to explain that
Like I doubt she'd actually care, like she plays Baldur's Gate and DnD and shit and like
when I was having my tics and twitches and shit, she was really understanding of it and was empathetic, so like, I know she's cool
but like. I'm queer as fuck. Outside of work I'm a puppygirl :3 I'm oupy I'm Literally Not Human and I prefer not masking any of it if I don't have to
I just told her I'd think about it bc who I am outside of work and who I am at work are two different people and I like keeping them separate and she said in so many words "yeah same" so hey!!!! maybe she's also queer as hell outside of work
but like I don't want to explain myself either and have it potentially fly back in my face at my job
IDK. I still think about what happened at my old job, where I came out as trans to folks I thought I could trust and ended up being harassed out of my job by them and it
IDK
LIKE IK I DONT HAVE TO BE ALL OF ME ALL THE TIME But I'd like to at least be most of me when I'm not at work
I have a chance to make a friend! With someone who seems really nice! But I'm just kinda really really scared!
IDK IG the solution is to just make an alt Discord that doesn't link back to Me and Mine but like. I don't want to do that. I'd like to be me but I don't think that's just something I can have.
Blegh